Thursday, July 26, 2012

Here is it -

Well, im finally going to do it; put my thoughts about my "friends" right here on the Internet. I honestly dont know how to confront them, so i was advised to put it on here and see if they even care to react.

First off, you have been my best friend for so long... people could think we are were married with how much time we are were together. Sure, you could argue that its only been two weeks, but here is the thing, going from seeing you everyday to nothing in two weeks, is a huge difference. i just want to know what i did that made you shy away. I have tried to make plans with you, but when i do, you just turn around and make plans with anyone else.

Second off, you i am most hurt by... you leave for about a year; which to me seemed like a whole lot longer. You have been home for about a month or so i'd say... oh thats right, i have only seen you about 3 times. You used to tell me about how much you missed running errands and how you wanted to just drive. anywhere. just drive... okay, well, to do those things, you actually have to call or text me. i know you have your girl, and thats great; i truly am happy for you, but that is no excuse to ignore me for a month. I tried almost daily to do anything with you, but it was always a "no". so i stopped trying. the only communication between us now is when you "poke" me over fb... well, there you have it, you win the war. i aint gonna be in a friendship where nothing is passed except over a public internet site. Im not gonna be there for you when the girl friend leaves if you arent making an effort now. Im not gonna be someone's second choice, so youre safe from anything like that, i just want my best friend back.

Third, we have gotten a lot closer i would say. i love your girlfriend. she is a gem. and you are a sweetheart. we need to finish that second batman; if you havent already.

Fourth, dude, either be my friend for good, or stay out. stop walking in and out like you dont care. Its not fair for me. yes, i make some decisions you may not agree with, no i dont plan on being in a one on one relationship with you.... but you are seriously one of the funniest guys i know and i love spending time with you. make up your mind.

And lastly, i understand you dont like her.... but we arent in highschool anymore. Show up to hang out with me and our other friends, you dont need to talk to her. i love you, tho... what ever you decide.

There you have it. Im tired of people walking all over me. Im tired of people coming into my life and leaving just as fast. If youre here to stay, thank you. If not, you can just go; i wont be angry.. sure itll make me sad for a while, but youll always be in my heart as someone that made me smile.

i miss my friends.

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Life -

So... I have been in this haze where i have no idea what i want to do with my life. I am basically throwing money at the university. I almost have my associates... in what?? oh just generals. because i am so lost!!!

Maybe you can help me. Anyone that reads this, text me or facebook me, please, about what you think i would be good at. What career do you see my in in the future??

Brandon, Kami, Asher, Kimber, Karoline, Breezy (if you read this), Tawni (if you read this still), Britt, Jake, etc.. i expect a text from you. You guys know me most.

Help me find my way in life!! Please :)

Sunday, July 1, 2012

Please -

I just REALLY want this dress. Will someone buy it for me?? Please?!?