Temple Square -

Every year I go on a date to temple square. Its my absolute favorite date to go on (if you exclude puddle jumping and mudwrestling types where you cant exactly plan it). This year I went with Jiffy Lube/Jiff/Devere/Micheal/etc. On the way up, we screamed country songs at the top of our lungs; he even put a cowboy hat on and serenated me to Tim McGraw's Something Like That. Yup, my heart melted!! haha. When we got there we walked around holding hands like a cute wittle couple, and snapped a few pics. On the way home, I got up the nerve to ask him what we were, where we were going, and what he thought about me possibly moving. I got the perfect answers, which was just what I needed. Tonight was perfect; I've never felt more "in love".

We're pretty dang cute, right?? :)

10 Lyrics -

Warning

This post is most likely gonna have no organization to it; brace yourself.

I packed a cooler and a change of clothes, lets jump and see how far it goes,

you got my heart and your daddy's boat and we've got all night to make it float,

we could sit on a shore or we could just be friends.... or we could jump in!!

The whole world could change in a minute, just one kiss could stop it spinning... We could think it thru

But I dont want to if you dont want to

Sugarland

You got your hands up, youre rockin' in my truck, you got the radio on, youre singing EVERY song

Im set on cruise control, im slowly losing hold of everthing ive got, youre looking so damn hot

and I dont know what road we're on or where we've been from staring at you girl

all I know is I dont want this night to end!!

Luke Bryan

He said "I know that youre afraid, and I am too; but you'll never be alone I'll promise you"

When your weak, I'll be strong

When you let go, I'll hold on

When you need to cry, I swear that I'll be there to dry your eyes

When you feel lose, and scared to death, like you cant take one more step

Just take my hand, together we can do it

I'm gonna love you thru it!!

And when this road gets too long, I'll be the rock you lean on

Just take my hand, together we can to this...

I'm gonna love you thru it.

Martina McBride

Here's how it goes

Boy meets girl, girl leaves boy

Thats all I know, all I've done, all my life

Cause thru out my history, I've only been with jerks who couldnt take it

But you see the picket fense, the swing on the front porch, with us two on it

When I believe that nothing lasts forever, you stay with me keeping us together

And make me feel like I never ever want to give you up

Til now, I've always been a quitter

Carrie Underwood

There's still a burn mark on that oak branch that hangs over the river

I still got the scar, from swinging out a little too far

There aint a corner of this hallowed ground, that we aint laughed or cried on

Its where we loved, lived, and learned real life stuff

Its everything we're made of

It sure left its mark on us

We sure left our mark on it

We let the world know we were here, thru everything we did

We laid a lot of memories down

Like tattoos on this town

Jason Aldean

Yeah, somedays its a bitch, its a bummer

We need a rock n' roll show in the summer

to let the music take us away, take our minds to a better place

Where we feel that sense of freedom

Leave our worries behind, we dont need them

All we need is a sunny day, and an old tailgate

and we'll escape reality

Yeah sometimes life aint all that its cracked up to be

So lets take a chance and live this fantasy

Cause everybody needs to break free from reality

Kenny Chesney

I said remember this feeling, I passed the pictures around

Of all the years that we stood there on the sidelines wishing for right now

We are the kings and the queens, you traded your baseball cap for a crown

And they gave us our trophies, and we held them up for our town

And the cynics were outraged, screaming "this is absurd"

Cause for a moment a band of theives and ripped up jeans got to rule the world

Long live the walls that crashed thru

and how the kingdom lights shined just for me and you

I was screaming long live all the magic we made

bring on all the pretenders, im not afraid

Long live all the mountains we moved

I had the time of my life fighting dragons with you

I was screaming long live, that look on your face

And bring on all the pretenders one day

we will be remembered

Hold on, just spinning around

Confetti falls to the ground

May these memories break our fall

Can you take a moment, promise me this

That you'll stand by me forever, but if God forbid fate should step in

And force us into a goodbye, if you have children someday

When they point to the pictures, please tell them my name

Tell them how the crowds went wild

Tell them how I hope they shine

Taylor Swift

I remember someone old once said to me that lies will lock you up, with truth the only key

I was comfortable and warm inside my shell

I couldnt see this place could soon become my hell

So is it better to tell and hurt or lie to save their face

I guess the answer is just dont do it in the first place

I know I'm not deserving of your trust from you right now

But if by chance you change your mind, you know I will not let you down

Cause we were the special two, and we'll be again.

Missy Higgins

You see the smile thats on my mouth

Its hiding the words that dont come out

All of our friends who think that I'm blessed

They dont know my head is a mess

No they dont know who I really am

And they dont know what I've been thru like you do

I was made for you

All of these lines across my face

Tell you the story of who I am

So many stories of where I've been

And how I got to where I am

Oh, but these stories dont mean anything, when you've got no one to tell them to

Its true, I was made for you

Brandi Carlile

Its hard to find the perfect time to say something you know is going to change everything

Living with the shame, it aint nothing like the pain that I saw on her face

Now me and my pile of things that she threw out the window drowning next to me

No seven years ago can hide the one night I forgot to where that ring

So let it rain, let it pour if she dont love me anymore

Let it come down on me, let it come down on me

Every word, let it hurt even more than I deserve

Let if come down on me, let it come down on me

Let it rain

David Nail

Torn -

I am torn between two choices that I know could both bring heartache, but could also bring much happiness.

Choice one - I have found my prince charming. I love everything about him. (well with the exception of his lame drunk gal friends always calling and wanting sex). He is so sweet and caring of my feelings. He respects my personal values and limits. He gives me butterflies everytime he flashes that P.E.R.F.E.C.T smile of his. He calls me randomly just because he misses hearing my voice. He leaves me "I just wanted to call and tell you how beautiful you are, and let you know how much I adore you" voicemails. He drives to where ever I am just to spend his 20 spare minutes holding me. He has a great sense of humor. My parents are fans. He lets me pick Disney movies over his car movies on our lazy nights. He wears a cowboy hat. He has a soft side and even lets me see/hear it. One of his favorite songs is a song that reminds me of Maddie (and I cant help but LOVE that that is a connection). He plays screamo just to laugh at my reaction. He is so outgoing and my friends think he is great. He is more humble than anyone I know. He is so dang attractive it makes my knees weak ;). He spends a lot of time with family. He introduced me to his family our second date, and I love them. When I hear love songs, I cant help but smile, daydream, and think of him. He listens to country. He lets me call him Devere (the name he goes by), Micheal (his first name), Jiff, and Jiffy Lube. He is the first guy that I have ever thought "I could really love him" while we are dating... I could go on for hours...

or there is choice two - (let me start off by saying, I'm not even sure if I will be wanted/accepted for this chioce) My aunt is in terrible condition. All I do is think about ways I can help her; take the kids out for some fun, help with the restaurant, help start the new restaurant, clean, help my aunt get stronger, etc.. She is not my biggest fan due to some unfortunate events in our lives, but it honestly only makes me love her more. She saved me from a life that was harmful to me and lost respect from some people by doing so. I think of her as my hero. I look up to her everyday of my life. I've gone thru phases where I hated her for not letting me back into her life for a choice I made, where I cried every night because of what I put her thru, and where I am grateful that she put her happiness before mine after making such a big sacrifice for me. The whole reason I decided to go into the medical field is because I wanted to know how to help her more. I miss her kids, and I miss her husband. Its not that I want everyone to love me... Its that I want to help save her for her saving me. I would drop EVERY SINGLE part of my life to go live with her and be there for her in anyway needs be. I love her soooooo much; I wish she could see what I've gone thru and how much I've grown. Tarah, I am forever in debt to you, just give me a chance to fulfill that debt.

Im waiting to see what prince charming wants us to be before I leave my life here. If he cares enough, I'll make a new plan. If he doesnt, I might just end it so things will be easier when I (hopefully) leave to help my aunt. Choices.. Choices... Choices...

Advice??

Leadership -

~Congratulations!! You have been nominated to take part in the International Scholar Laureate Program (ISLP) Student Delegation on Diplomacy and International Relations in China this coming June 2012.~

Today, in the mail, I got a letter from International Scholar Laureate inviting me to attend the college version of NYLF (National Youth Leadership Forum) that I was nominated for in high school.

This is the 3rd invitation I have received since high school; first from NYLF, then the Global version (which I didnt attend), and now the International/college version. The fact that less than 1% of students get the opportunity to attend these educational vacations, just fills me up with such happiness and a little lot of pride in myself. To be nominated for the first one (cause the second one comes just because you went to the first one) a teacher has to think so highly of you that you were his/her vote. I never found out which teacher it was that got me into these programs, but I am forever grateful to whoever it was.

name tag from NYLF

These educational vacations are ones that you take alone and are able to go out into the world and learn and experience how to become a world-class leader in life. When I went as a sophmore in highschool, I was scared and shy while waiting in the airport lobby with all my peers. By the end of that week, I had life long friends and a greater love and understanding of our (the US) government and where we came from.

Taking this trip to China would mean that I'm not going to be able to travel and visit family like I was planning, but it would do wonders for my brain and resume. All in all, I am super excited for even the opportunity to make a choice to go or not.

-how was meeting my nerdy side??-

I Still Miss You...

Tonight I spent with Mother Dearest (Paige) and my best friend Marnie. Paige had told me about hers and Marns plans to head up to the Park City outlets to shop when I was dropping off some flowers for her. Then later tonight I got a call from Marnie, who invited me to join the two of them on this fun extravaganza. These two women are two of the most important people in my life. Every time I am with them I feel a sense of security and I feel safe. Another thing I love when being around them, is Madison is ALWAYS with them, so I feel her around too.

Madison died a year and a month ago on Oct. 7th of 2010. I only had known her for a year and a half, but she was always fun to be around; she was always making me laugh and smile. When she was hit, I was in the ER. I heard the entire call between the paramedic and the head nurse that morning. Even though she didnt end up coming to the hospital I was interning at, finding out that that call was about my best friend's little sister who had later died, surely left a mark. Needless to say, the "what if"s caught up to me and just made things worse. I found a song a while ago that really just explains what I went and still kinda go through; I Still Miss You by Keith Anderson.

I've talked to friends

talked to myself

I've talked to God

I've prayed like Hell

but I still miss you.

I've tried sober

I've tried drinkin'

I've been strong

and I've been weak

and I still miss you.

I've done everthing to move on like I'm supposed to

but I still miss you.

I really have tried all of it, and the pain never goes away. Marnie and Paige are both individuals that I look up to with everything I have. I love them SO much and I dont even think they realize it. They make such the difference in my life, and probably even have the most influence on me too. They are so strong even when everyone would understand if they broke down. They're perfect in my eyes.

Love you Marnie-kins. Love you Mother Dearest. Love you Maddie babe. Today was a great day spent with the three of you. Thanks for letting me share it with you. <3

The 3 PERFECT moments

In my life, I can think of three seperate memories, that involve men, that were the most perfect moments.

one.

Back in the 10th grade, I was nominated to attend National Youth Leadership Forum in Washington DC. It was just me; there was no family, nor any friends going with me. So when I got there I knew that I had to make friends. The main boys(you know, since I dont get along with girls as easy lol) that I hung out with were Eric, Chris, and Justin. Eric was the most flirtatious, but not exactly my type. Chris was the one I was interested in; he was super cute, plays the bass in a band and was given a scholarship to some art school for that talent. And lastely, Justin was the super attractive but super player kind of guy we all know. 

Now that you know the background story, I can tell you the perfect moment with Justin.

The last couple days of the trip, I got sick (didnt know til I got home, that is was H1N1). On the plane ride back, me and Justin realized we had the same flight, so we asked the lady sitting next to me to trade him seats; which she did, and that was super nice of her. It was set to be a super long flight, and Justin told me if that if I got tired, I could lean on him and sleep. So halfway thru the flight, I took advantage of that offer and laid in his lap. Half asleep and super sick, I just sat there in silence. Justin being the hot guy that I didnt think I would ever have, put one hand on my hip and one "caressing" my head. He ended up getting sick too with swine the next day, but he told me it was worth every cough, sneeze, and runny nose. Maybe this was perfect cause I didnt feel alone like I did going there. Maybe it was perfect cause I was sick. Anyway you put it tho, it was P.E.R.F.E.C.T.

two.

About a year and a half ago, me, my parents, and tyler all went on a road trip to florida to jump on a cruise ship. They had a "club" for teens called the O2 club. There was a meet and greet that me and tyler had missed on the very first day during the afternoon. When we went the first night, no one was dancing, but everyone seemed to know eachother.. So I felt pretty stupid. But Travis Martin came about and just kinda welcomed me and Ty to the crew. After a week of dancing and swimming and all that jazz you do on the cruise, we knew everyone, and we all got along great. The very last night around 1:30AM I went to my room to sleep cause we were getting up at 6 to leave. Around 2AM tho, EVERYONE (except for my own brother and a couple girls haha) showed up to my room. We all talked and said our goodbyes except for Kyleigh Sikora (my best friend on the cruise) and Matt (the sexy guy from england with the sexy english accent). Kyleigh was laying in Tylers bed and Matt and me in mine. We all three talked til about 4AM when Ky went back to her room. Me and England fell asleep on my bed with his arm wrapped around my hip. We woke up at five and he went to his room. There was no kiss, no sex, no anything; which could have been the reason it was so PERFECT, because it was straight up spooning.

Three.

My junior prom was with a guy that I look back now that realize how in love I really was with him. His name is Taz Wilcock. He was 21 and only going to prom cause his sister was my best friend at the time and conviced him to take me (we had been dating before this, but ya know. what 21 year old wants to go to prom??) So we get all dressed and go to dinner. In the beginning I was kinda acting like we were just friends, but he assured me that he was going to act as if we were the most in love couple in the world. After dinner we went to take pictures. When we took them I told Taz that I didnt want one of the suggested pictures they have hanging, so we made our own. After the picture was taken, we were walking back to our friends when he swooped me up in front of all our friends and strangers and spun me around, kissed me on my forehead and put me back down so we could do the group pictures. Later that night, we didnt actually make it to prom, instead we went to our friends concert in Provo. We danced our hearts out there. When we left we all decided to hit up the water towers and look at the view. Me and Taz were the only ones to get out of the car and sit on the bench. We just sat there and cuddled talking about life. Around 1AM we dicided to get back in the car, but before I stood up, I just sat there and looked at him... and that is when he leaned in and kissed me. This whole night will always be on my tops list of favorite memories.

If all I had were these memories, I think I would still get by with a smile on my face at all times. Im just lucky that my life is FULL of fun times to remember!

The Steak is OVER!!!

Wow. I would like to start off by apologizing for being a complete blog-loser... its been almost a whole month since I last blogged!!! SO SORRY!!

I have been super busy these days; not just busy with school, but also with "sprung upon" trips to Portland, and playing with cousins, work, and even dating... Yup. I have recently jumped back into the dating game.

As many of you know, I have been on strike again kissing since the end of May. What many of you dont know, though, is why. Well after three "heartbreaks" within just the senior year, and multiple, MULTIPLE different (this may seem shallow, but its not as bad as it sounds) "one night stands" (no sex. just make outs), I decided to test how long I could go without kissing anyone. To make the challenge easier, I basically took myself out of the dating equation.

Recently, though, I have been feeling "lonely" when it comes to watching romantic comedies and all my friends ditch me to go on dates. Not to mention, my very best friend now lives in NY, and other best friends are mostly scattered about the state. So, with some advice from my brother and some other helpful homies, I decided that ~6 months of "sobriety" from kissing was enough, and opened up my eyes to the dating world again.

About a week before the Portland trip, I went with my dad to get our oil changed.
"Left or Right," he asked.
"I dont care, dad," was my response.
The next thing I knew, he was making a right hand turn towards the Jiffy Lube in lindon.

When we arrive, I jump out of the car, look to my left and see this GORGEOUS smile being flashed my way from one of the workers. Thinking he was just being a good employee, I gave a little smile back, turned my head and walked into the waiting area. Helping my dad look at pens online for his business, I barely glance up to the door opening in front of me. There walks in "gorgous smile" boy. I look back down, but quickly look back up at him to notice the BLUEST eyes I have ever seen looking at me and smiling again. I again, smile back.

After realizing that I had been being stared at by such a handsome man, I look at his hand (you know, for any certain ring). BAM!!!! no ring on that left finger.... but wait, thats a wedding band on his right hand ring finger...?

I decide after the cars were finishing up, that I would ask about this mistery ring. So as my dad is paying for the bill, I walk out and start chatting at (look at his name tag) Devere (but lets be honest, we call him "Jiff" or "Jiffy Lube"). We talk about why he is wearing a boot, and what kind of car we both drive. He opens my dads door and close it behind him.

"Are you not getting in??" He asks.
"Nah, my truck is in the shop, so I brought in the SUV over there."

As I start walking over, he walks with me. He opens my door, and I blurt out about the ring. He tells me it was a joke about moving back to Utah, and given to him by 6 grown men. Then I took a deep breath and said...

"Hey, would you ever want to get together?? Do something fun??"
"I was hoping you would ask. We arent allowed to openly flirt here at work"

I gave him my number and three dates later, we were sitting on his couch in his basement. He was trying to teach me guitar, but when I gave up, he just started playing and singing his own songs. Should me a picture of him in his cowboy hat, and I had found my perfect man.

Sorry its flipped



Later, he walks me out to my truck and asked me, "So you still havent found out about the 'are you sure im worth breaking your streak' question, huh??"

Quickly, I responded with, "not a clue."

"I just have a past is all"

"I dont care who you used to be; I mean, youre obviously a different guy now"

"True..."

"So, I'll take my chances" I say, adding a wink.

a small silence enters.

"Well," I started to make sure it didnt have a chance to get awkward, "when you decide you are worth it, you can make your move."

And then, like a prince saving his princess from the castle, he leaned in and said, "I never said I'm not worth it." and kissed me.

So, now you have the story of the evil spell being broken. We shall see where this takes us. :)

Kousin Kim -

I have been putting this off for a little bit now, trying to think of the perfect things to say... but after the day I had yesterday, seems apporpriate to put it out there now.

My cousin Kimber has always been a role model to me, even when she maybe shouldnt have ;) point is tho, she was always someone I looked up to. A lot of firsts, I shared with her...

First time I ever jumped into the provo river and went down the "rainbow slide"

First time I ever held a snake

First time I ever snuck out

First time I ever went toilet papering

First time I ever played Mexican Boarder Patrol

First time I ever "hearted" someone's yard

First time I ever chased a herd of cows

First time I ever got chased by a herd of cows

First time I ever tried out for modeling

First time I ever ran thru a clothing store and picked out clothes for OTHER people to try on

First time I ever waited in line so early in the morning for a sale at a clothing store

First time I ever ran up and down a parking lot to see how fast I could run

First time I played phase 10

She was also there...

The first time I ever had a neice

The first time I ever bullied Kami(im sure of it)

The first time I ever hid up stairs and forced someone else to see if that door was the right apartment

The first time I had a best friend turn her back on me and just walk away

The first time I ever played Gestures



Kim was there the day my best friend lost her sister, and she held me so close and didnt let go until I was done crying. She took care of me when I was too weak and scared to drive. She distracted me when she knew that nothing happy was going thru my mind. And tonight, she was there for me again when I broke down and couldnt hold on to a shed of light. She stood up for me when appropriate and held me when I was ready to fall. "So while I might not be able to make it better ... I can be a shoulder to cry on and a friend to veg out and eat junk food with." She openly admitted that she might not have all the answers, but even with that being the case, she wouldnt give up on me.

Its just a bonus that she happens to be fun to be around!!

Love you Kim. Glad you helped me grow up to be who I am now. Thanks for EVERYTHING!!

The Fall Post -

Since everyone has been posting about fall, I figured I would join the party.

The difference is, most people enjoy autumn because of the clothes, decorations, and flavors of drinks you can get at Jamba(kami).

For me, this time of the year is my favorite because of the traditions..

haunted houses

Bonfires/Campfires





Thanksgiving

Indoor fun

Rain activities <3



And much, much more....

(such as the lake house, which is gone now..boo)

All these traditions have something in common about them tho... they are all with people I hold closest to my heart.

Its gonna be a hard season without my boys

I miss you all

Pics That Get Right to the Heart -

Its these kind of pictures and moments that make me tear up a little....

I'm so glad you are home with your kids Mike. You all deserve to be happy together <3



Life Happens -

In highschool, you always heard people saying, "This is the time of our lives!" It never really occurred to me about how easy it was back then. Little to no responsibility, the comfort of your own group of friends, and not having to worry anything because things always seemed to work themselves out anyways. It was always the same routine; walk in, go to the wolf statue, give hugs down the row, ask "where is my best friend?", stand and chat til the bell rang, go to class, get harassed by Asher and Jarred, take a nap during my free 2nd period, go to class with Melissa, get a drink with Melissa, go to class with Melissa again, go home, BS my homework, head to a friend's....

Then this happened -

- and we were all SO excited.

The summer consisted of...

 camping

silly string wars

vacations

boating

swimming

(yes we are in normal clothes.. this was after a hike on a hot day)

getting tan

concerts

falling in LOVE with her dancing (Melanie Moore)

spending most of my time with these girls

losing these boys

and falling apart from this girl :( and being left with this (start at 3:16) thought

Which leads to the belief and understanding of why high school was "the time of our lives"

ps. not supposed to be depressing. just reminiscing. :)

Tease -

So maybe I am a tease to some...

but I learn it from this sign



Such a tease...

Pointless Post -

Got this idea from BreAnn Kimball-in'

I have trust issues

When I love, its always too much

I hold grudges

Sometimes my smile is just a mask for what is really going on in my life

My biggest fear is the future and what it holds

I get creative when I am sad

I run when I am mad

I have always thought my mother deserves better than what she has

My favorite accessory is sunglasses

Most of my closet is blue

I truly miss how easier life was back in high school

Kids drive me insane

My nieces are the most important people in my life

I would trade all my happiness just to see my grandpa well again

I L.O.V.E making people feel awkward

I'm best described as spontaneous

Family always comes first

There are people I wish everyday that I could just take away their pain, even if it means taking it on myself

I wish I was better at photography

When I am alone and have too much energy, I put on "concerts"

I am a country girl to the bone

I honestly believe I was born in the wrong time period

My dream job would be anything in emergent care; it gives me a rush

Love scares me

I have seriously proposed to an NBA player, and he said yes

I have more guy friends than girl friends

I never want to grow up

At my happiest, and at my lowest, Carrie Underwood's Some Hearts album is always with me

I miss my aunt Tarah terribly

Its almost guaranteed for me to have a thing for a guy as long as he is attractive and in his 20's

My favorite movies are Disney (Lion King is #1)

Grease is the best all time play/movie

I have a habit of falling for my best guy friends

There is only one person I hate with all my heart, might, mind, and soul

I forgive, but have a hard time forgetting

A "normal" picture of me usually consists of a funny face

Some of my best friends dont even live near me

I wish I had a pet dolphin to swim with in my pool

My all time favorite vacation is taken every year at Thanksgiving and is shared with the whole Shurtliff family

I have the joints of an old woman

I may have been a kissing whore for a while there in my life

I have a family of stuffed animals I sleep with every night

No one is ever too old for disney world/land in my opinion

My best memories have all been with my family (cousins)

If I call you a whore to your face, usually means I love you

When people dont answer my phone calls, I sometimes leave pointless, mean messages

The Notebook makes me tear up every time I watch it

I want to save my first kiss in the rain with the man I marry

I L.O.V.E watching dance

I'm almost always sarcastic

When things go wrong, I dont talk to family about it first, cause I would rather them not see me cry

I love you is the last thing I want to say to people, in case its the last time I ever see them

I am who I am, and I love that

Where were you when the world stopped turning that September day?? -

10 years ago to this date, four planes were taken over by "a faceless coward"

I was in the third grade, when I had seen teachers walking around with tears rolling down their cheeks.

I was young and ignorant to the situation, until the principal got onto the intercom, told the faculty to turn their TV's onto a certain channel and have the children watch what had just happened to the twin towers.

The very first thought that went into my mind, which immediately brought tears to my eyes, was, "My uncle lives there..."

After watching the towers fall, the song I'm Proud to be an American came on throughout the whole school...

The lyrics, "where at least I know im free.. and I wont forget the men who died who gave that right to me," hit me so hard that my eyes just kept flowing with tears, because even at 8 years old I KNEW with 100% certainty that we would always be free; no matter who tried to break us down.

My class was was gathered in a circle at this time, and we all shared our thoughts about what we had just seen and felt.

"My uncle lives in NY and works near those buildings.. I just pray that he is okay and alive."

When school was let out early, I gave my mom a giant hug and asked her about Rich... she told me that we had no word from him yet, but she was sure he safe (which she just said to comfort me).

I remember the feeling of such relief when my dad had gotten that call from his brother.

10 years ago was one day I will ALWAYS remember.

10 years ago was a day I will NEVER forget.

So.. tell me, where were you when the world stopped turning that September day??

I hear people saying we don't need this war
But, I say there's some things worth fighting forWhat about our freedom and this piece of ground
We didn't get to keep 'em by backing down
They say we don't realize the mess we're getting in
Before you start your preaching let me ask you this my friend

Have you forgotten how it felt that day?
To see your homeland under fire
And her people blown awayHave you forgotten when those towers fell?
We had neighbors still inside going thru a living hellAnd you say we shouldn't worry 'bout bin LadenHave you forgotten?
They took all the footage off my T.V.
Said it's too disturbing for you and me
It'll just breed anger that's what the experts say
If it was up to me I'd show it everydaySome say this country's just out looking for a fight
Well, after 9/11 man I'd have to say that's right

Have you forgotten how it felt that day?
To see your homeland under fireAnd her people blown awayHave you forgotten when those towers fell?
We had neighbors still inside going thru a living hellAnd we vowed to get the one’s behind bin Laden
Have you forgotten?

I've been there with the soldiers
Who've gone away to war
And you can bet that they remember
Just what they're fighting for
Have you forgotten all the people killed?
Yeah, some went down like heroes in that Pennsylvania field
Have you forgotten about our Pentagon?
All the loved ones that we lost and those left to carry on
Don't you tell me not to worry about bin Laden
Have you forgotten?

Have you forgotten?Have you forgotten?

There were four planes that day... our people were brave and strong enough to fight back and bring one down... They sacrificed their lives, to save the lives of others.

That is America

First Song -

This morning I woke up in the most pissy mood. Kami had texted me about taking our friend out to lunch for her birthday. I honestly didnt really feel like going because I knew I would be no fun to be around, but since it got me out of the house, I decided to go.

I had the radio off on the drive to Kami's because no country stations were playing any songs, and I truly believe that the first song you listen to in the morning can make or break the day. When I walked in her front door, I heard these lyrics playing, and I knew from that moment on that it was gonna be an amazing day.

After getting ready, we left to surprise Kenna with a birthday poster we held up in the middle of the mall where she was. We gave her her presents, had a small convo, and left to visit Ashley at her store.

Me and Kam planned possibly the dumbest prank to pull on her when we got there.. we were going to walk in, wait til she saw us and came to say hi, then right after she made contact with us, we were gonna leave without saying a word. We are cool, its fine. We spent about two minutes in there til she even gets remotely close to us, but she never realized we were there.. until of course when I turned around and saw her standing literally 2 feet from us, which was when I shoved Kami and we started running out of the store. Of course thats when she noticed.. So being the nice friends that we are, we went back in and talked with her for a while until we got hungry and then left her for food. While eating we get a text from her that says, "someone just asked me if I have seen my car, which I havent yet, but you guys are douchebags." Granted, we have been caught by her a number of times for sticky noting her car.. but WTF!! WHO SNITCHED?!?!

So we head back out to her car, which had her windshield only half filled with a full wad of sticky notes taped on.. And finish the other half. Now, this might look from a third person point of view like a hate crime, but coming from me and Kami, it deffinately shows love.

After we left the mall, we went to Blockbuster to rent Something Borrowed. While in the middle of enjoying this wonderful movie that described my feelings about a certain someone, we got a call..
Kami answers, "what do you want??"
A very angered, but knows its funny, Ashley, "YOU TAPED THEM?!?!"
"no."
"Yes you did! This way is so much harder to take off!"
"Hope you have a long lunch."
"God, I only have 30 min."
"bahahaha, well that sucks, better hurry."
"ugh. I hate you both. bye"
We finish watching our movie, which ended around 4:30. This was around the time that me and Kami had the same thought (which actually happens pretty often)... Silly String Attack!!!! When pondering about who to attack, I remember, "hmmm.. Ashley gets off at 5!! If we hurry, we can buy a couple cans and make it back to the mall in time."
So we arrive back at the mall, where we hide for like 15 minutes, decide to go see if she is coming, almost get caught by her as she is walking out, and silly sting the daylights out of her.

Night goes on, and we get back to my house just in time for my parents to invite us to Tepanyaki. SCORE! It was a really busy night for them, so while we were waiting, I got this WONDERFUL pic of Kam.



During the show, this kid on our table starts to cry.. no worries, he is maybe like a year and a half old. The chef pulls out a sucker and hands it to the crying child... "what?? no fair.. if I start crying, do I get a sucker too??" you hear Kami ask. With in SECONDS later, me and kami had a marshmellow on top of a chopstick and a bowl full of fire in front of us to roast them with.. pretty sure we got the better end of that deal! Stupid baby! haha



The night concluded with a trip with my mama and Kam to JC Pennys for their 80% deal they had going.

I am so grateful for my cousin, who knows when I need some cheering up, and knows EXACLY how to turn my day around. I love her with all my life. She is the best little infant I know. Thanks a million, I owe ya!

<3