Torn -

I am torn between two choices that I know could both bring heartache, but could also bring much happiness.

Choice one - I have found my prince charming. I love everything about him. (well with the exception of his lame drunk gal friends always calling and wanting sex). He is so sweet and caring of my feelings. He respects my personal values and limits. He gives me butterflies everytime he flashes that P.E.R.F.E.C.T smile of his. He calls me randomly just because he misses hearing my voice. He leaves me "I just wanted to call and tell you how beautiful you are, and let you know how much I adore you" voicemails. He drives to where ever I am just to spend his 20 spare minutes holding me. He has a great sense of humor. My parents are fans. He lets me pick Disney movies over his car movies on our lazy nights. He wears a cowboy hat. He has a soft side and even lets me see/hear it. One of his favorite songs is a song that reminds me of Maddie (and I cant help but LOVE that that is a connection). He plays screamo just to laugh at my reaction. He is so outgoing and my friends think he is great. He is more humble than anyone I know. He is so dang attractive it makes my knees weak ;). He spends a lot of time with family. He introduced me to his family our second date, and I love them. When I hear love songs, I cant help but smile, daydream, and think of him. He listens to country. He lets me call him Devere (the name he goes by), Micheal (his first name), Jiff, and Jiffy Lube. He is the first guy that I have ever thought "I could really love him" while we are dating... I could go on for hours...

or there is choice two - (let me start off by saying, I'm not even sure if I will be wanted/accepted for this chioce) My aunt is in terrible condition. All I do is think about ways I can help her; take the kids out for some fun, help with the restaurant, help start the new restaurant, clean, help my aunt get stronger, etc.. She is not my biggest fan due to some unfortunate events in our lives, but it honestly only makes me love her more. She saved me from a life that was harmful to me and lost respect from some people by doing so. I think of her as my hero. I look up to her everyday of my life. I've gone thru phases where I hated her for not letting me back into her life for a choice I made, where I cried every night because of what I put her thru, and where I am grateful that she put her happiness before mine after making such a big sacrifice for me. The whole reason I decided to go into the medical field is because I wanted to know how to help her more. I miss her kids, and I miss her husband. Its not that I want everyone to love me... Its that I want to help save her for her saving me. I would drop EVERY SINGLE part of my life to go live with her and be there for her in anyway needs be. I love her soooooo much; I wish she could see what I've gone thru and how much I've grown. Tarah, I am forever in debt to you, just give me a chance to fulfill that debt.

Im waiting to see what prince charming wants us to be before I leave my life here. If he cares enough, I'll make a new plan. If he doesnt, I might just end it so things will be easier when I (hopefully) leave to help my aunt. Choices.. Choices... Choices...

Advice??