Well- Lately I have realized who my true friends really are; it just so happens that most of them are moving, so soon I will be left with mostly fake friends who like to either ignore me, lie to me, or use me. Dont get me wrong, I know that I will ALWAYS have family; and I am truly grateful for that everyday lately. I also know that the friends like Marnie Stevens, Britt Brinkerhoff, Asher Jackman, Jake Dyson, Brandon Hoefer, Kalin Ashby, Kenna Roberts, and Ashley Mann who dont happen to be related in any legal or genetic way, will also ALWAYS be here for me as well. I even am lucky enough to have friends that are SO close in heart, their only problem is that they lack in distance. It's just that its FINALLY starting to hit me that I have the WORST taste in friends.
My very BEST friend for all thru junior high and high school has made it very clear to me that she could care less if I was even alive anymore. We have had the best times I could ever ask for throughout the years. She is in most of the moments that I look back at and smile about. Some of the most memorable conversations I have had, come from those that I had with her. Karoline was there through the HARDEST times in my life; she was also there for the HAPPIEST times in my life. Maybe its just me, but I believe that best friends are allowed to tell each other the honest truth and point out when they make bad decisions. I guess thats not what karoline thought, and now I am without a BEST friend.
[Marnie, dont worry, you are my GREATEST friend <3 ]
Then there are the friends, one in general, that lie to me and use me for either people I know or the things I own. Everyone has friends like these, so maybe I shouldnt even complain- I just feel like people should realize that its not okay to ditch their friends for their friend's family. It's not like I have a problem with my friends dating my family members; it's that I am not okay with my friends lying to me and telling me they have to leave to drop off their brother at their home, but when I show up at my house, their brother is in my front yard and my brother is gone(along with my so called "friend"). I would like to meet whoever was the first person to use someone else, and then I would like to give them a peice of my mind.
There are people in my life that bring me all the happiness in the world; cousins, aunts, uncles, parents, siblings, grandparents, and the ones I will FOREVER count on are three beautiful baby girls- Roxanna Amberlynn, Ava Rosalyn Marie, and Paityn Jean. A special 'thank you' goes out to everyone who has been here for me to vent to, cry in front of, distract me, and just hold while I spiral down this whole growing up part of life.
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