Miles Away -

In the last couple of weeks, I have heard people say stuff like, "I wonder if I already know my future husband.. like if we have already met" so... that got me thinking.. if I were to choose out of my friends I already have to spend my life with, who would I choose?? To save me from any awkward moments, I am not going to use their real names- but I have made a list -

• My best friend, we will call him, Z - Z is always there for me when I need someone to talk to. He knows that I am a kid at heart and doesnt judge me when I act like one. Sometimes, he makes it a point to plan things child-like just for me. He always tells me how I deserve the best, and I should never settle for anything else. I am NEVER uncomfortable around him, and I feel like I can talk to him about anything. Z gives the BEST hugs, and he even on occasion will give me a small kiss on my forehead. I love the guy.. seems like we will always be super close.
• The one I never would have guessed, we will call him, M - M and I talk almost EVERY SINGLE NIGHT and surprisingly never get bored; we ALWAYS have something to talk about. We make up plans for when we see each other, what we will spend our time doing. He offers a listening ear whenever I have problems; he might not always have advice, but he makes me feel better about the situation every time. I love his look; he is super attractive, always nice to look at (especially the short time I was able to see him in person). He is in his twenties (so automatically I have to be attracted to him, right?). I always look forward to our nightly fb chats, cause even topics like "how was your day?" seems so natural, like I could ask him that question everyday for the rest of my life.
•  My first "love", we can just call him the Tazmanian Devil - I have had three perfect moments in my life that include men (that I think of from time to time). Tazmanian Devil is in one of them. We hadnt been dating long, and were just super great friends; we always had fun together. We dressed up and he told me "today I am going to act like I am so deeply in love with you." That night, I got called gorgeous, beautiful, adorable, and everything in between. Also that night, I literally got swooped off my feet as he spun me around in a circle in front of a crowd of strangers and friends. The night ended with us looking at the stars and the city on a bench up the canyon a bit, where he kissed me for the first time. He was always taking me out to new places to try new things. He got me to look forward to church on sunday and just overall made me a better person. I will always love this boy, and wish him a happy mission.

Now, you may be asking yourself, "and why arent you dating any of these boys??" The main reason would be because I live here, and they live miles, and miles away over there. Just my luck to fall for people that I just cant have.

~On a silent night when friends are few , I close my eyes and think of you, A silent night, A silent tear, A silent wish that you were here~